Between Knowledge and Belief

Image result for sacred geometry in the atomIn our modern world, we have knowledge and we have beliefs. Knowledge consists of facts and information gained through experience, either by ourselves or by others that is backed by irrefutable evidence. Beliefs are the acceptance that something is true or exists without factual certainty, either because we are unable or unwilling to test those beliefs. There is a third element that lies between knowledge and belief that most of us fail to realize. The element that all knowledge was held as a belief until it was proven.

Growing up, I had a falling-out with religion and later became strictly atheist. In this I became biased against beliefs and only trusted in the facts. If something was not yet a fact, then one day it either would be proven or it would not. Such is the process of the scientific method. But when you think about it, even the scientific method has a loose basis in belief. You have to believe in a potential outcome, your hypothesis, that can be tested to either be true or untrue. If you did not believe in the hypothesis even just a little bit, you would not have ventured on to testing it.

There is a balance between knowledge and belief which some of us realize. It is growing harder however to practice this balance as there seems to be a wedge being driven between the two. This has been happening since the Renaissance to where today topics that dwell in the realm of spirituality are considered taboo by science. The duality of having either one or the other is disharmonious as not everything is able to be proven nor will everything that people believe end up being true.

A belief is nothing more than an untested or untestable hypothesis. Isaac Newton had this as he was developing the Laws of Motion and the Theory of Gravity. Albert Einstein and the Theory of Relativity and the list goes on… Granted, these are very macro-scale events for the scientific community but they originated as a personally held belief by someone at some point. The original ideas backing these concepts no doubt originated long before these great figureheads of science came along and put their names on them. The difference is that in their time, they finally possessed the necessary resources in order to properly test them.

There still remains a great and many things that we are unable to properly test. No doubt things will remain that way for long after we all pass. Each and every one of us has our own theories and beliefs that one day could possibly end up as being true. The catch here though is that there is a big difference in the beliefs that could be true and the ones that we wish could be true. Whether we lean more towards science or religion, each of us must be mindful of the plausibility of reality that we accept these ideas with an inquisitive, but open, mind.



Relationship with Yourself

The defining aspects of relationships are becoming frequently overlooked or forgotten. I have even fallen prey to this thus impacting the things that I enjoy most, to include writing. What I wished I had realized sooner is that in order for us to be in a healthy relationship we must first have the same with ourselves.

There are many different types of relationships, but here I will be talking primarily about committed relationships with your significant other. Whether you are only dating, have been in a committed relationship for a considerable amount of time, or if you are even married, this is what I will be talking about today.

I honestly did not know what having a relationship actually meant. Before, I saw it as companionship. Having someone to go through life together with and be able to share the fun with. This was supported by my perceptions of relationships when I first began learning about them in high school. My how naïve I was.

When I was in high school, everyone was getting into relationships. You weren’t technically someone unless you had a boyfriend/girlfriend, were going on dates and double dates, attending all the dances, holding hands in the hallway, and making out in the secluded corners of the school. It was yet another social convention that you had to buy into and conform with. Coupled with everyone being horny teenagers, you can see just how misguided this sort of mindset is. I grew up seeing that in order to actually be someone, you had to be in a relationship with someone else first.

Is this a Western problem? I don’t think it is that exclusive. Yes, I have met my fair share of people who had a better committed relationship in high school than the majority of adults out there today. Hell, even I can be placed into that category as well. Throughout my travels and all the people I have met there seems to be a growing impetus for discovery of someone else instead of the discovery of self. Maybe its in our genes, but I’m no geneticist.

Last night, before going to bed, I asked myself: “If I were someone else, would I want to be in a relationship with me?” My answer was a very resounding “No.” I don’t know what I want, where I am going necessarily, or who I really am for starters. All of these are self-awareness items that I would expect someone else to have pretty well figured out before being involved with them. The thing is though is that there is no expectation or emphasis placed on expecting the very same from ourselves. Hence, this is my current homework as of late…

Self-realization and actualization, I feel, needs to be more strongly emphasized over the pursuits of what you can offer to someone else. Granted, there always needs to be a balance but how can we give our best to someone else when we don’t have a grasp on ourselves in the first place? As contradictory as it may sound, the first step to any relationship is to have a relationship with yourself first.

NaNo 2016 – In Review

Coming into this year’s NaNoWriMo, I will admit that I had very high expectations. My last attempt was somewhat meager so I implemented what I thought was a good plan. Funny how regardless of how well-formed your plan is, life can just come along and blow it apart like a straw house.

It was somewhat comical how I planned and prepared so far in advance only to sabotage myself right out of the gate. I completed most of the Write for 31 Days challenge (blogging), had my outline prepared, gathered a posse of support, and had my resources readily available. Five days later after NaNo started, I decided that I was extremely unhappy with my life and that became the priority instead.

I am my own worst critic, and I would be lying if I said that I couldn’t have found some time in between things to write. I very well could have but honestly, I just was never in the mood.

In retrospect, I did write over twice the amount of words as what I accomplished last year. That is a noteworthy achievement I will recognize. Normally I am not a highly competitive person, but the corners of my mouth do tweak a little as I compare my stats to the rest of those I know and participated with.

To close out, here is a list of things that I learned or realized over the course of this year’s National Novel Writing Month that I wish to keep for the record as well as share with everyone who may be considering participating next year:

  • NaNoWriMo is very much about vomiting words onto the page. Editing comes later.
  • Don’t plan out your novel for months (or even years) prior to starting like I did. You will likely hit a wall that you cannot see through or around and end up pulling your hair out. Allow for some planning but keep the flexibility of letting the characters respond to the situation by asking “what if…?”
  • You will never have enough time to write the 1,667 words per day if you don’t make the time.
  • Its not what you do during NaNoWriMo that makes you a writer but what you do during the other 11 months of the year. If you only write during November at 1,667 words per day, you will only write 50,000 words per year. If you write 500 words per day for the rest of the year, you will write over 165,000! Take your pick.
  • Writing is no fun if you keep it to yourself. Get out, participate in write-ins, find support groups, meet like-minded individuals, talk to your friends and family about what you are writing about. By doing that you will end up finding more inspiration for new content than what you could have on your own.
  • It doesn’t take a NaNoWriMo to do your own writing sprint. You can make your own and hold yourself to it any time you like. Don’t let your creativity cycle be dependent on someone else’s plans.
  • Write lots, read more.
  • Keep a notebook about anything and everything and always keep it with you.
  • Even if you don’t win NaNoWriMo, the words you wrote bring you that much closer to finishing.

Day 4: 4,892

2,494  words written
+ 2,398
   4,892 total words written (Par: 6,666)

Today was a good day. Would have been better if I could have slept in for longer, but I had to call into work early to check in after last night’s event so that I could have the rest of the day off. Tried going back to sleep afterwards but at that point the sky was awake so I was too.

While I drank my morning coffee I played video games for a short bit. After that, I geared up into writing mode. I don’t know when exactly I got started, but I remember looking at the time and seeing that it was only 9am and thinking, “Wow, its still early. It feels like it should be much later already.”

received_10153866454526123I live on the top floor of my apartments and have a respectable patio with a sturdy  steel rail fencing it in. Just so happens that its the perfect size and shape for a hammock… It was a little cooler out this morning so I put on some warm and comfy clothes, grabbed my laptop, and went to writing out in my hammock.

I don’t know how long I was writing for in the hammock but I managed to write 1,732 words. I stopped because I was thirsty in addition to the regular daily goal of 1,667 was my goal to do before I could go out and do anything else. Finishing that, it was time to run a few errands.

Getting back from errands, I relaxed a bit further by putting on an episode of Dark Matter. Netflix, curse you for feeding a binging addiction. Of all months too.. After that, it was time to make cheesecake for a get-together tomorrow with friends.

While I waited for the cheesecake to finish baking, I set a timer for a word sprint and cranked out another 762 words. Thought about trying to do more, but that didn’t really happen. At this point, I am only 1,774 words behind but by midnight tonight it will be 3,441.

Which brings me to the lessons learned for today… Yes, you may have more time the next day to write than you did the last, but the work that you didn’t do only adds on. I overlooked that. Its easy to go, “Oh, I will get to it tomorrow.” Well its tomorrow, and its as unsympathetic as gravity.

Day 3: 2,398

0 words written
+ 2,398
    2,398 total words written (Par: 5,001)

Today I slacked. I slacked a lot but for understandable reasons. At least I think so…

I slept in until 6am (yes! I know! I whole hour!) even though it didn’t really feel like I did, got up and made my coffee. Instead of sitting down and writing though, I plopped down and caught up on some news. That was what I used to do before starting NaNoWriMo.

Went to work which I knew was going to be a short day because we would be having a formal event later that evening. Even though it was a shorter day it was a lot of running around, appointments to be made, and last minute things to get taken care of. After all, it was my last day at work for almost two weeks.

Got off work at 10am, went home, and played video games. I’d been hitting things rather hard both at work and in my personal life so it was good relaxing. Not quite writing relaxing, but the absent-minded I-just-need-to-vegetate-for-awhile kind of relaxing.

Tried putting my daughter down for a nap around 1pm. I napped instead. After that, it was time to start getting things ready to go to my work event which would last the rest of the evening.

By the time I got home, it was a little after 10pm. Yup, no writing would be occurring now. Too tired. But hey, I have the next two weeks of staycationing to catch up.

Lesson of today: It’s okay to take breaks during NaNoWriMo. Yes, you will miss out on the fancy little 30 day badge you can earn, but that is not worth sacrificing your sanity for. Pick your battles where you can wisely and it makes the month and the writing a lot more enjoyable.

Day 2: 2,398

Day 2: 2,398 total words written
Woke up at 5am, hit the snooze for 15 minutes. Got out of bed before my emergency alarm (the really loud and obnoxious one meant to wake the dad) and wrote 554 words before work.
During downtime at work, wrote another 159 words. Somewhat of a busy day.
Got home from work, now I have one of my regular neck pains that escalates into a migraine. Did not accomplish much writing since work. Did watch an interesting documentary on living in Antarctica though… Now I want to go there. Total for today is 713 words.
Yeah, yeah… I realize. What the hell happened today? Life. Life happens, but that’s okay though. I new this would happen early on so I planned a contingency for it…
Next week I will be taking off of work to just relax and do things I enjoy. I haven’t done that in a long while so I deserve it. Want to know what I enjoy doing and relax to? Writing. 11 whole days off of work to do whatever I want, so naturally my word counts I expect will skyrocket. I did do the math, and if I wrote 5,000 words per day, I could get to 50,000 words in just 10 days… but we will see though.